Another 365 is almost gone. Resolutions, hopes, dreams, plans, lack of interest in the new year, whichever mode you are in now 2012 will come in without a doubt.

2011 seems like 4 years in one and now looking back despite the highs and lows all I see is the blessings of God strewn across each day and month, when I turn and look back I see only the mountain of His faithfulness and I still stand upon the rock of His steadfast love. When the earth all around me has been sinking sand He has been the solid rock upon which I stand. I end this thaking my Lord for all He is to me!
2012 a mystery, a present waiting to be opened. Each day of the new year I place totally in Your hands and know your favor and faithfulness will continue to rain on me. So I place all my hopes and dreams in your hands. In You I trust.

11/11/11

For the sake of saving a memorable date, not just memorable a once in a lifetime date,...!

Everyone seems to have a different approach to this day from celebratory, to prayerful to apathetic. I guess my approach is all inclusive, but for now here's my approach;

I'd like to thank God for all the amazing things He and only He has made possible for me!!

I happen to be dating the most amazing person on the world,..its a fact!

3 months ago I never would have guessed I would be in Juba on duty travel working with and meeting some of the most amazing people,..ecco mi a Juba!

My sister is married has a job

My mom is running our sunflower project:)

I don't lack anything,...literally!!

Have I been on my best behaviour and deserving of any of the favor God has so generously poured over me? No,..a hundred times no. But in spite of me,..He still blesses me,...

So on this day 11/11/11 I am saving all my love, my gratefulness, my honor and praise for just HIM! Its true, He is the lifter of my head, He is my triumph and truth.

I will not be here the next time 11/11/11 comes by but the truth will still remain that for those who call on Him and those who put their trust in Him,..beyond this day and for ages to come He will still be the God who looks out for His children like they are an only child and who seeks to bless those willing to take from His never ending supply of blessings.

Thank you Lord!!

To God be the Glory!

Your faithfulness and favor upon my life leave me speechless! Thank you Lord for your love, goodness and mercy.

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Indeed He is!!

Protector, deliverer, healer, defender, peace, joy, LOVE, provider, strength, song, friend, comforter,...all these things and more you are to me right now.

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For now

For though the fig-tree shall not flourish, Neither shall fruit be in the vines; The labor of the olive shall fail, And the fields shall yield no food; The flock shall be cut off from the fold, And there shall be no herd in the stalls:Yet I will rejoice in Jehovah, I will joy in the God of my salvation. Jehovah, the Lord, is my strength; And he maketh my feet like hinds' feet, And will make me to walk upon my high places.

It's all good!:)

This is it!!!!! Loving life, loving me, loving God!!!

Learning how to fly!! Learning how to be me!!

Beat this!!

Out of the eater came something to eat,

Out of the strong came something sweet!!

So with the finest of wheat He feeds me,

and with honey from the rock He satisfies me!!

Down but not out!

If to be down means to be held high in the arms of God, so be it,..SO BE IT!!!!

He satisfies me with good!!!!

Wait a bit more!

But really????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Round and round I go, It has to mean something.

Hiatus

Unemployment is a bad word! So from now we will call it (recuperation) hiatus. Who doesn't enjoy a good holiday far away from the madding crowd every now and then?? I do for sure!

Unemployment is like having to take a shower. You procrastinate, dilly dally and till you cannot avoid it anymore,..then you drag your unwilling self into the shower and once you are in giving your self a good srcub and feeling the water wash over your body, it takes an effort to drag yourself out(of course this is all my personal experience)

When you finally get out of the shower though, you feel refreshed, alive and energised! Thats my personal view of hiatus!!

And so I will enjoy this hiatus!! Its time to be refreshed!

2010

What a year!!!...endings, begginings, endings again, travel, love, music, friendship, family, et al! All I can say is God has been AWESOME to me, taking me places beyond my wildest dreams, and teaching me that He got nuthin' but love for me!!

What does the future hold?? Non lo so,...I am learning that it is settled in quietness, trust and thanksgiving!

WITH ALL MY HEART THANK YOU LORD!!!!!

Winter's Here! - 21/12/10

Star takes a bow, drums roll, curtains are drawn,....Let's get ready for the next show!!!

ANCORA!!

Right back at the place I hate to be,...it's all good though since i ain't at the wheel anymore. He is! I wonder what He is up to this time:)??

Nothing like Paris to put things into perspective

Whats the best way to get rid of a thought that nags you the whole day?
a) Play dumb and act like it doesn't matter
b)Worry yourself sick thinking of all possible solutions
c)Take matters into your own hands and try to manipulate the situation to your advantage
d)Pray about it, do what you can, and let Jesus handle the rest

Some solutions are more sensible than others, the sensible solutions are easier said than done and for me it seems that I go through them all before I finally get it!
Well, in the past week I have been to Parigi and despite the biting cold it was well worth it to just leave the norm and for a couple of days live in a dream,...now I am back to the norm,...has the situation changed? No, but a few days of detachement can generally put things into persperctive,...life is to be lived a day at a time, there's stuff out there to be enjoyed and it's all a matter of time before this will be over and i'll be onto the next challenge!

He will bring you before Kings,...

,..to name them,..

1. Mr. Gavel(Egypt)
2. Mafioso(Italy)
3. Shylock(Iran)
4. Patel(he should be the guy from Panama)(India)
5. Jackie Chan(China)
6. Dr. Doo little(Panama)
7. The abostralian(Australia)
8. The Sleepy One/Mr.Wisdom (he should be the guy from India)(Mexico)
9. The Eloquent one/Mr.Questions(Netherlands)
10. Grumpy(Gabon)
11. Trueblood a.ak.a the Absentee (Uganda)
12. The Class prefect(America)
13. Neighbour(but really where was this guy the whole time???)(Sudan)

10/10/10 - 10th October, 2010

Writing for the sake of saving a memorable date,....it would have been ideal to have written this at 10 am or 10 pm,.....a day i dedicate to unanswered questions, dissatisfaction and minor disappointment, but nevertheless the carpet of my life is rolling out as per the course it should (it's a red carpet by the way!!!)

08/09/10

On this day of your life, Jane, we believe God wants you to know ... that as you surrender to divine providence in your life, you will feel lifted and carried and held.
All is well, all is well, all is well.

New Beginnings:A Condensced diary of the last few months.

4 months later and I am in Rome!!! Like i said life with God is a sea of wonderful possibilities:) I'll rewind,....

April 30

Finished off with Medair and i really needed time to realx and re-group but nevertheless i still needed a job

May 17th

I was contacted for a volunteer position in Rome! After sending multiple applications and getting almost no responses it was the last thing i expected,...that just goes to show that God is no respector of persons,...when you decide to throw off the limits and trust Him, He will honor your faith.

May and June

Nice days spent with friends: going to Mr Es to see uncle Rich and Ray, that package included free movie rentals, i am ashamed of how much tv i watched (5 seasons of The Office in less than 2 weeks, finished Pushing Daisies, started Community, watched countless moveis,...), catching up with MM, going to the beach and all the good times spent with Jennie shopping and having delicious treats at the Old Javas.

June 24th

I left Uganda for Rome, ecstatic cos i knew he was at the other end of the flight, nervous about my first day of work and meeting new colleagues, anxious cos i knew i was starting a new life and sad to be leaving my family and friends behind:(

So I left on a jet plane, was a really nice flight(Turkish Airlines) met a guy called Daniel and we went shopping at the duty free in Istanbul together and finally arrived in Roma at 11am! He was there!!!! waiting for me with a bag of cherries and at that moment nothing else mattered!

June 28th

Started work at FAO, 2 months and 2 weeks later i am still learning new things everyday and thats not cos i am dyslexic, this place is a jungle! Atleast now i can find my way to the Casa bar and don't get lost on the way back to my office!Life is a roller coaster: meeting tons of new people, learning new ways to work, learning that when i say caffe that automatically means an espresso, starting my first class of Italian today and most importantly learning how to order a cup of tea at the bar and still insist on tea despite the weird looks and comments from the barista.
Its been been exciting going to the Francavilla over the weekends, getting totally spolied rotten by the Chietinos, learning to swim in the sea, learning to ride a bicycle, going to back to Norcia and seeing all those people i love, eating nice food, doing a thesis on " the gelato and gelaterias of italy", and meeting so many nice people!!

After 2 years and a month of having a relationship over the phone, developing a bond with skype, learning how indispensible emails are, and realising mobile phones are a necessity for this life, we are finally in the same space!!! I don't think its something i can describe well enough. Doing everything together and being together,...it just feels RIGHT!Once again THANK YOU God because no dream of mine is too big for you, thank you for going ahead of me to make all the crooked paths straight and thank you because day by day i learn that i can trust my dreams, hopes, plans, failures of yesterday and wishes for tomorrow with you knowing in your time you make all things beautiful.

Me Time,...finally!

Exactly 2 years, a month, and 6 days later and my time is my own, at least for now,...the short version is that the credit crunch didn't just book a ticket to Europe and America, it added Uganda to it's itinerary and while here, decided to pay me a visit,...in short, i got retrenched, at such a young age too!!!

i must admit, after frantically applying for jobs the past weeks, working like crazy, shedding tears as i said hasta luego to my former colleagues, some of whom i had become really fond of, finally putting my belongings in box(like in the movies) and arriving home and literally feeling the emotional and physical exhaustion of 2 years like a physical weight, its simply delightful being able to wake up at my leisure, watch a good movie, read a book, not having to double check my alarm clock is set to wake up early, see my friends without watching the clock, drink lots of tea of course and simply do nothing, nothing!!!

i should be worried about the future and i guess at times i get anxious not knowing exactly where my life is headed from now, what next, where next??,...the usual intrigue that comes from unsolved mysteries.

i have decided though, to give myself a break, enjoy this bit of freedom from the rat race, reconnect with me and simply be thankful for time to do what i like!

what surprises the next couple of months will bring i am trying my best to leave entirely up to God. with Him life is a sea of wonderful possibilities and i am going to walk on water!! thats as exciting as exciting can possibly be,.....i will rest a while at this cross road.

so let the storms rage high, the dark clouds rise they won't worry me, for i am sheltered safe within the arms of God, He walks with me and naught of earth can harm me, for i'm sheltered in the arms of God(thanks Ben Speer)

Habakkuk 3:17 and like C says, don't just stop at 17,...read it to the end!